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for some reason, this spring’s feels have been basically near-constant anxiety, isolation and inability to focus, and it sucks a lot. I haven’t designed a new button set in months, and every time I try to sit down and create, I end up staring at photoshop, trying a couple designs, then deleting them in frustration. even music is no comfort; I haven’t had the time or spoons to play my bass often or long, and as for the music I listen to at work … I’ve made half a dozen playlists of upbeat, happy music, and can’t listen to any of them for more than a few songs – but gods help me if I change to a playlist with anything close to moody music, because crying at work sucks. I have not ruled out changes to my stupid Hashimoto’s as the root of the problem, and am in the midst of trying to schedule an appointment with my endocrinologist, but in the meantime it feels like life is one big long UUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.

or to put it another way:
suriel: (Default)
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for some reason, this spring’s feels have been basically near-constant anxiety, isolation and inability to focus, and it sucks a lot. I haven’t designed a new button set in months, and every time I try to sit down and create, I end up staring at photoshop, trying a couple designs, then deleting them in frustration. even music is no comfort; I haven’t had the time or spoons to play my bass often or long, and as for the music I listen to at work … I’ve made half a dozen playlists of upbeat, happy music, and can’t listen to any of them for more than a few songs – but gods help me if I change to a playlist with anything close to moody music, because crying at work sucks. I have not ruled out changes to my stupid Hashimoto’s as the root of the problem, and am in the midst of trying to schedule an appointment with my endocrinologist, but in the meantime it feels like life is one big long UUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.

or to put it another way:
suriel: (Default)
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today is not good. articles that include snippets about possible animal suffering triggered me HARD. conversations with coworkers about racism, misogyny and hate drag me down because I’m a stupid little cis/het/white woman, what can I possibly do to combat any of that? I like to think I’m an ally but who knows?

today feels futile and painful. the suffering of others is cutting deep.

and crying at work sucks a lot.

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